Love Story of a Crossdresser - Exploring Monalisa

My Love Story started in a strange way. I was staying alone in a major City in India. One fine evening there was knock in the door and when I opened  - there she stood, Lean, Ugly but with a sparkling smile.

She demanded whether she could meet my wife. I got a little irritated and replied curtly that she is not here and if it is an urgency she could travel 2000 Kms to meet her. She displayed that sexy smile again and apologized and said she is a tailor and stitches clothes in her home for living.

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She had come to my house thinking she could get some dresses to stitch and inquired if I had some. I laughed and said, I have, but not if you stitch only female clothes. There we go folks, our first meeting went like this and she began frequenting my house as she liked talking with me.

She is fatherless with one brother and sister and her mother worked as a House Maid for a living. Her bother is a drunkard and came home drunk everyday. He is so violent and disrespectful that he used to beat his Mother and also his sister in the evenings and never gives money for the household purpose.

We became closer and closer and she became a regular visitor to my house in the evenings. One day she came crying telling that her Brother beat her with a stick and to my surprise she lifted her tops and showed the marks she had sustained by the beating. It was horrible. But I did not want to exploit the situation and asked  her to stay calm and gave some pain killers and a Coffee. The look of her bare back with stripes everywhere troubled me a lot and gave me lots of sleepless nights.

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Festivals are numerous and colorful in India and one such festival is Vishwakarma Puja. Vishwakarma is supposed to be the architect who created Heaven and in Hindu Mythology he is the first Engineer in the Universe. His birthday is celebrated across the country with colorful decoration, Music, Dance and gatherings. On one such day after the puja in my Company, I returned home a bit early and I was a lot surprised to see her waiting for me.

She had come to give me sweets and wishes for the day. I tasted the sweet which was really good and offered her the sweets that brought with me. She took a small piece and ate it and refused to take more, but asked me to eat some more of the sweets she brought. I made an offer to her, if she bites half of the sweet, I shall take the balance.

So the game started, she took a sweet, ate half of it and gave the rest to me. The next one I ate first and gave the balance half to her. It was fun and it continued for a long time till both the Sweet boxes were empty. I felt happy because she was happy and she felt the same way because I was happy.

My job was a real tough one managing at least 200 people working under me. The pressure it exerted on me was so great that sometimes I felt I should disappear from this world and be free for at least a day.

A similar kind of a situation emerged the very next day and I came home taking half a day leave. When she came to meet me in the evening I told her I want to disappear one day from this World and happily roam around the City like a free bird. She immediately said she would help and asked when I wanted to do that.

So the next day we started very early in the morning and simply disappeared from the face of the World. We traveled together and walked  in the banks of Ganges, ate in restaurants and finally went to a Movie. Until then I was trying to keep some distance from her and never touched her.

But in the Movie hall, the rush acted in our favor, my shoulder brushed hers, our hands touched, her body smell reached my nostrils and hit the brain straight and made me imagine things that I never had imagined before.

She was ecstatic  and kept saying that it was the best day in her life. When I turned around and saw her in the darkness of the Movie hall, She looked beautiful. So far she had attracted me as a person but not as a girl. I have told you already that she looked ugly but if you asked me at that moment I would have told that she is the most beautiful Girl in the World.

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We returned very late in the night and first she came to my house in spite of my refusals as I was afraid for her reputation and the after effects that would develop in the eyes of the Society and the beatings she would get from her brother.

She looked straight into my eyes. Her eyes were sparkling with joy and her lips were wet and inviting. I tried to avoid looking into her eyes. But the inevitable was about to happen and I knew I could not resist it.

She came closer and closer looking seductively, touched my hand, held it firmly and took it to her bosom and pressed it there and asked if I could feel the beat of her heart.

I not only felt her heart beat but also felt her boobs - small, rounded, soft and warm that made my heart also  to beat faster. She pulled me closer further. I was surprised by her strength and felt a weakness running throughout by spine. We ended up embracing each other.

She was desperately searching my lips and when I offered, that is it...

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She kissed me deeply probing the insides of my mouth with her lingering tongue. Her body was on fire and all the time I was conscious of the time and forced her to go to her house and said we would continue from here the next day.

She reluctantly left.

We started all over again the next day evening and let me share those experiences in my next Blog. This is the beginning of  Love Story  of a Crossdresser which lasted for about three years and ended up destroying my entire career.

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7 Myths about Sex Offenders - Exposed and Clarified

Today when I was casually browsing the net, I stumbled across an article in the Website of State of California - Department of Justice. It was about the common myths and believes about the sex offenders and about their correctness.

It was really informative and I thought would be useful to you as well and hence I have summarized the content and sharing the points through this blog.

1) Offender's Knowledge about the Victims:

The Statistics go like this. Most of the offenders know their Victims well. Majority of the Child Victims (almost about 90 % ) know their offender and in half of the cases the Offender had been a part of the family. Unbelievable isn't it ?
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2) How Child Victims are cornered:

As in most of the cases the Sex Offenders are well known to the Child Victims, they seldom use threat or harsh methods to access the victim. They do lots of sweet talking to gain confidence of the Child Victim and build up a relationship. Once the offender feels that the relationship base is strong enough he gets into action and it is here that the abuse and offence starts.

They do not go for elaborate procedures like tracking the Victims in Schools or {Playgrounds but they know the right place and time for the action as they they are already well acquainted with the Victim's daily routine.

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3) Sexual assaults of Adult Women: 

In the case of the Adult Women, most of the rapes are of 'Confidence rape' type. The Offender know the Victim and uses the familiarity to get closer and closer. At some point of time when the Offender thinks the time is ripe or if he thinks he is running out of time, he jumps into the act.

Beware Young ladies, not of  dangers from the unknown but from the known circles.

4) Are Child Sex abusers, Sexually capable:

A minor percentage of the sexual abusers are attracted only towards Children. Rest of the vast majority of abusers are sexually active and are attracted equally by Adult females.

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5) Effects of the Abuse:

Physical injury is what that gets immediate attention. But normally the physical injuries are cured in time but the psychological impact of the abuse survives. Trust the victim had upon the offender is first shattered and the victim might end up in a trauma that might create nightmares for rest of the Victim's life. The Victim might find it difficult to trust a person again.

6)  Victim's course of action:

The Victim, in most of the cases tries to hide the assault permanently or tries to prolong disclosure of the incident. Shame on how she or he believed the offender and the trust wrongly placed, stops the victim from disclosing the assault immediately. The fear of how the friends and relatives  would react to the assault also keeps the victim silent for some time. But when the initial shock and pain starts receding the Victim analyses the course of action and most decide to disclose as they do not want to get assaulted again and also to protect others from getting assaulted by the Offender.

Talking about the assault with someone trusted at a time the Victim feels as right will reduce the psychological pressures.

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7) What Motivates the Sex Offenders:

It has been clearly established that most of the sex offenders do not get into the offence just for sexual pleasures. Hunger for Power, desire to dominate, losing one's own control on himself and anger about individuals, job, Society or with himself are the main reasons that motivate a Sex Offender.

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9 / 11 - Remembering the day with tears

No one who wants a peaceful life could forget this particular day.
09 /11 - The day written in History books with words bordered with blood, vengeance and hatred.  The day saw multitudes of innocents and rescue teams dying, that laid the foundation for a war against terrorism.

Though I am not an US citizen, I think, as a Human, could share my deep condolences to the relatives and friends of the deceased.
Not only the common man but lots and lots of rescue staff lost their life on that fateful day. Some statistics I saw in Wikipedia made me cry for those innocent people who died unaware that death is going to embrace them just like that because of some fanatics.

Total People killed on that day - 2977

This number includes

• 341 firefighters and 2 paramedics from the New York City Fire department
• 37 Police officers from the Port Authority of New York and New Jersey Police Department.
  
• 23 Police Officers from New York City Police Department
• 8 Emergency Medical Technicians and paramedic from private hospitals
• 3 Now York state court officials.

They did not just stand and watch people dying in front of them They dived into the fire of death trying to save their fellow Humans. Their names are now written in the books of Humanity in Golden letters. Remembering them at this time floods our eyes with tears but their bravery and sacrifice are unmatched and each and every individual will remain in the hearts of peace loving people for ever.

The day saw the brutality if religious fanaticism in it's full force that not only killed people but also had imparted repairable damage to health for thousands.

About 18000 people developed illness  in the surrounding areas due to the effect of Toxic dust created because of this disaster.A study of rescue workers that was released in the year 2010 revealed that almost all those who were involved the rescue operation had impaired lung function.

Could a sane man order the deaths of so many people and the calamities that followed just in the name of God and religion ?

We are in the advanced state of civilization and our science is in it's zenith and then how such a religious atrocity be committed. Humanity as a whole received a harsh beating on that day leaving people like me thinking whether truth and peace would survive. Be it a meteorite attack or attack of Aliens or attack of terrorists we have always looked upon US as a savior to come up to the front, take the leadership and   fight for the good cause. Because that is the only country which has the  resources, power, freedom to act and above all faith in humanity.

True to our belief, almost all those who are responsible for the attack were eliminated, eliminating our fear that the world is inching towards it's own destruction. Thanks to the collective strength of all the US citizens and their leadership.

Life is the most precious thing in the world as that is the one that we could not create so far. If creation of life is not possible, then who gives some people the right to destroy it. Human life is not a commodity that could be created or produced and destroyed at will. No one has the right over another Human's life. No religion in the world has preached about killing a life for the sake of religion.

But if you turn the pages of history, you could see lots of wars fought for the sake of religion and millions of people dying for the cause they considered religious. How the Almighty God who had the power to create the Universe and the life could order us to kill others for his sake ?

Poor understanding of the religious books, wrong guidance from the so called religious leaders have time and again resulted in incidents similar to 9 / 11

I remember one philosopher (I am sorry I could not remember his name) telling that "A Man would kill another with pleasure only if the act is religious'. If not for the religious fanaticism, even the worst killer in the world would have at least a small feeling for the Man whom he is killing.  Such is the impact of religion in Human Mind.

Why not an Human Religion be created that would be universal and followed by each and every Human in the World ?

Let Blood run inside our body and not outside.

Let us run the world not with blood and fear but with peace, love and humanity.

7 Basic Facts about Boobs that make them miraculous

Boobs is a very versatile topic and the interest that it creates in Men and Women are great. They are sensitive organs not only biologically but also socially. Men are crazy about it because they never get a chance to see the boobs so easily.

Even if one gets a chance to witness one, his quest never ceases as each and every boob is specially designed and built by the combination of DNA and hormones that no single boob is similar to the other one.They are unique in nature.

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Their shape, size, weight, color, position everything vary from individual to individual. Just seeing one does not satisfy a male. His interest goes on increasing as each boob he sees will increase his interest to witness more and more due to it's diverse nature and quality.

It is not only the males who are overtly interested in facts about boobs but females are also equally drawn into it because of reasons that are different. Even though both men and women develop boobs there are some basic and strong reasons why they are considered an exclusive property of females. I am going to share here 7 basic facts about the boobs.

1) Why boobs are special for females ?

Breasts are developed by embryological tissues and such development happen for both Men and Women.But during Puberty, a female sex hormone called Estrogen secretes excessively in females that contribute for the prominent growth of boobs in females than Males. In Males, secretion of a sex hormone called testosterone is more that doesn't compliment breast growth. Estrogen is  the  main source that makes  female boobs special.

2) Structure of Boobs:

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Major muscles of the boobs extend from second rib to the sixth rib in the front side of human rib cage. Boobs are basically assumed to be of conical shape with it's base at the chest wall and nipples decorating them at the other end.
Weight of the boob varies from 500 grams to 1000 grams depending upon the structure. A small boob can weigh 500 grams or less whereas a bigger one could weigh between 500 to 1000 grams or more in some cases.

3) Configuration of Boobs:

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There are high breast and low breast configuration found commonly in females. Boobs that are mounted high upon the chest wall with rounded shape high breast configuration. In this case the cone and dome shapes of the breast is placed exactly in the base and projects out horizontally from the chest and the weight will be evenly distributed.
In the low breast configuration, the boobs are fixed to the chest at the base but the extended form of the breast will form a fold that reduces the load imparted to the chest and shoulder bones.

4) Structure and functionality of  Nipples:

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Nipples are the focal points where protrusion of boobs end. They are the focal point for vision as they shine like a jewel atop every boob with different color, shape and texture.It is surrounded by areola whose color varies from pink to dark brown and even darker in some cases.

5) Divine fact about the boobs:

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Female boobs contain Mammary glands that secrete Milk during Motherhood and is fed to the child through nipples. By Nature's law basic creatures like plants are gifted with the power of producing food from minerals in the earth and the energy in atmosphere. We, the humans and animals have to work hard to get the food but could not utilize the natural resources to produce our food ourselves.
But it is a miracle of nature that only females and that too at the time of Motherhood and that too only through the boobs could produce food for the sustenance of another life.

6) Can Men develop boobs ?

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Most of the fat Men develop boobs naturally that are bigger in size and shape but without mammary glands and so they cannot produce milk. Transgenders artificially develop boobs by consuming estrogen rich tablets. Silicon implants also produce big boobs.

7) No single boob is identical ?

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Let me conclude with special bonus fact about boobs that most of us may not know.

I have already told you that boobs are diverse in nature and no single boob is identical. When I say no single boob is not identical I really mean it. The two boobs that a female has got will not be similar. Almost 90 % of the females have boobs that are not similar. This dis-similarity can be in size, volume, the way it is attached to the chest, position and size of the nipple or the angle at which boob is positioned.

None could match the miraculous and divine nature of the female boobs.

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5 strange secrets about boobs - Views of a Crossdresser

I am crazy about boobs. Some time back I used to collect photos of various sizes of boobs, with different shapes and colors and I used to enjoy watching them for a long long time till I went crazy. Sometimes I liked small boobs and sometimes huge boobs that hung like a ripe water melons.

Every one would agree that watching boobs is one of the pleasurable thing in the world. Is it true ?

In my case I normally used to get turned on by cleavage shows than the show of naked boobs because sometimes naked boobs could be disgusting. But Cleavages always remain evergreen,

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As you all know I am a crossdresser with the specialty of having a big Cleavage. Most of my fans and followers get attracted by my Cleavage show and some have even gone crazy. While reading their comments and cravings in my facebook page, I used to think a lot about boobs. And this thought process took me to a dark alley where I found 5 strange secrets about boobs and I am sharing them here.

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Boobs are the exclusive property of females:

I find this oddly ridiculous because almost all males who are bit over weight have well shaped breasts. Instead of a bra holding them together, these boobs simply swing around without any support. Neither the individual nor the public seem to care a damn about this. In  fact no one even notice their boobs and regard them as a beauty.Is it because this natural beauty is covered by dense hair ?

Boobs are appreciated for their size, shape and beauty:

I tried a small experiment. I went out bare breasted and roamed around in a busy beach, no one cared a damn about me.The next day I shaved all my hair over my breast and strolled around in the same beach bare breasted. Still no one noticed. The next day came and I went to the same beach wearing just my shorts and brassiere and also with a light make up and a wig. Now I was noticed, approached, appreciated by people who didn't even noticed me when I was bare breasted the previous day.

I had nicely sized boobs with shapely curves but no one noticed when I had hair over that and the same thing happened even after I shaved my hair. Bur wearing a brassiere over my couple of boobs made people to turn and stare at me.

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It is not the boobs that are attractive but the way they are presented make them attractive:

If not for the advent of brassiere men would have lost all their interest in boobs. A bulky pair of boobs when encased behind a brassiere looks goddamn seductive. We do not want to visualize how those boobs would look like devoid of that tremendous support given by a Bra. They would hang down like ripe spoiled fruits and if they are big they would even reach their belly. I normally find that sight really disgusting. So a pair of supports make a disgusting sight lovely.

Why boobs are in demand ?

Young and lean boys find boobs attractive because they do not have such projections protruding outside that are always covered and kept as a secret from time immemorial. The curiosity factor of wanting to know how they would  look like without a cover over that, itself is sufficient enough to keep the craze going. Fat and older guys, in spite of the fact that they themselves have the boobs, find the female boobs attractive because, unknowingly their inner psychology make them believe that only females have such a valuable asset.

Are boobs pretty for ever ?

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Child birth, Motherhood and excessive necessary and unnecessary usages make them sagging and dangling in an uncomfortable position which make them look ugly without the protective covering. But the relatively unused boobs of a male remain strong and shapely even at old ages.

Boobs are made for a special purpose that is divine in nature and is awarded to females as a gift for the painful transformations they undergo during the child birth and Motherhood. I am not denying that and respect it. But, in my opinion they are not as beautiful as the boobs of a Male.

My Second outing with Transgenders at the cost of my entire earnings

After completing my first outing with Indian Trans genders which didn’t end up with me going out in female dress, I again went there the next week. This second visit provided me with a chance to go out in female dress but for a short time but the price I paid for that was so huge that I almost fainted.

The second time, she asked me to come to a different place saying that she would be able to introduce lots of like-minded people there. True to her words there were lots of transgenders living there. First I was introduced and I found transgenders with different colours, shapes and ethnicity. There was only one Male there and he looked like a gigolo wearing lots of jewellery.

Without wasting any time they started dressing me up. Once dressed I felt elated as usual. One of the transgenders suggested that the moment calls for a bit of partying and I financed for their drinks. I also had a few rounds of Whiskey. One girl started loud rocking music and some of them started dancing. While I was watching them dance to the tune of the music, one girl invited me to dance. I was reluctant a bit as I had never danced before but on insistence I joined her.

She asked me to just watch her move and follow the movement with my legs. I did exactly what she told be and when she increased the tempo – believe me I was really dancing like a female. As a male he raise my hand and rotated and swung around. I felt like a puppet and I liked it.

When everyone got tired we had dinner that was financed by me. I was still waiting for the moment when they would ask me to come out for a stroll. But that never happened and one by one, all the girls were preparing to go for sleep as most of them were in full booze, I could not insist them to take me out.

The girl with whom I danced came to me and said that my bed was ready and I can go to sleep. They have given me a separate room and I felt the loneliness again, in female dress, unappreciated. I called the girl again and asked her to sleep beside me not for any ulterior motivation but I needed the comfort of a being at that time.

She said she had no problem sleeping with me but as a professional she cannot do that without taking money. I said I was prepared to pay money but since all my hard cash got exhausted while spending for the liquor and food, I had very little cash on hand and that I would pay the next day morning after I withdrew money from ATM. She said, if I am really interested I can do that even then and offered to give company to the nearest ATM which was about half a kilometre away from that place.

The idea of going out in the middle of night that too with another transgender really appealed to me. So I agreed and we, along with one more girl started walking out.

The street was deserted. Occasional bikes that were passing by, slowed down to have a good look at us and glided past. I was simply flying high. When we reached the ATM, I entered the cubicle and the girl also entered with me. I thought of asking her to wait outside, but I didn’t.

I took the money, walked back to the house and went to sleep. Because of the excitement and the tiredness I slept immediately. I slept like a female and woke up as a female. I was happy and this is the life I had always wanted to lead.

One of the girls prepared coffee and asked if I preferred to have breakfast there. I politely refused and after drinking the hot coffee, undressed, removed the make-up and started my long journey back to my place. I would have travelled in a public Bus which was cheaper but I called a taxi instead because I wanted to sit back, relax and recollect all the previous day’s events.

I also asked the driver to stop in some ATM on the way to take some cash as I didn’t have any to pay for the taxi also. After some time the taxi stopped in an ATM. I went inside and the biggest shock I ever had in my life was waiting there to scare me to death.

All the money in my account was withdrawn. I could not believe it at first. Again I tried, but the same statement appeared. Then it dawned to me that after I slept the girl or girls would have taken the ATM card from my pocket and withdrawn all the money and replaced the

card back in my pocket.

My situation was pathetic. I didn’t have money to pay for the taxi even. I thought of going back to the place and try to get the money back. But, my inner mind told me that I cannot do anything like that because that was a secret mission and I cannot get the help of police as the question of why I was here would arise for which I have no good answer.

So, I came back from the ATM and while travelling to my home, I called my girlfriend and asked her to meet me in front of my house with some money. She came with money and I paid the taxi driver and the episode ended here.

Oh….I revealed another secret while narrating one here …..My Girlfriend…..whom I loved with all my heart….I was prepared to put my entire life at risk for her sake.

In fact I lost my job, career, car, entire house hold things and my dignity, respect everything not to get that girl but to leave her.

That is an interesting story with a bad ending. Let me blog it next.

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